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04.17.2003 1:00 pm
broken nose
I have been SOOOO exhausted. [Red Hot Chili Peppers - By The Way] Besides having this respiratory thing going on, which keeps me up at night coughing (not to mention being a pain in the ass and quite embarassing in social situations - breakin out with a cough that sounds like it could be a rhino's obstreperous swan song) and has been going on for at least two weeks now, I am also struggling to help out Miss Anna as she recovers from her surgery of this past Monday. She's been staying at her boyfriend Travis's house, which strikes me as a really stupid idea. Yeah, the bathroom's closer there than it would be here. But I've given it some thought. Benefits of Palmer: Travis is there; the bed is really low to the ground, and consequently easier to get out of; they have a tub and private bathrooms, clearly lacking in the dorm; it's easier to cook stuff there. Downsides of Palmer: It gets freezing mid-day at Palmer because they turn off the heat; Anna gets left alone because Travis has to work and I can't be there all the time; there are people smoking pot all the time in the next room; Travis isn't the best care-taker. I think he's used to having people around who adore him, so when it's his turn to be attentive, he falls down on the job. I'm not saying he's not worried or that he doesn't care. I'm just saying he's not good at it. Nobody in that house is. Anywho, moving on: Downsides of the dorm: the bathrooms are farther away; the bed's higher off the ground (I assume Anna would have taken my bed, so she wouldn't have been four feet in the air); it's harder to cook things; lack of a tub. Benefits of the dorm: PEOPLE!! There are people all around who love Anna and want to take care of her, many of whom don't have cars and can't get to Palmer to say hi. Oh, oh, oh. Here's the kicker. Imagine this situation: Your girlfriend/boyfriend has had minor surgery and is recovering in your house, under your care for a week and a half. The weekend arrives. Do you: a) stay and care for him/her? b) make other plans, but make arrangements for his/her care? c) make other plans and leave your significant other to fend for him-/her-self, alone in your house? Yeah, um, Travis picked letter c. He's leaving for the weekend to go home for Easter. Wouldn't you have arranged for something, someone, to take care of your girlfriend? Not Travis. Anna asked me to spend the night at Palmer on Saturday. I said yes, but I think I'm going to renege. This sickness plaguing me is really bringing me down. I need to go home, get some TLC, get rid of this ridiculous window from Machinal taking up ridiculous amounts of space in my room. I'm really awfully tired. I've been doing my best for Anna, considering. Oh, oh, oh. And Anna's mom keeps calling me to make sure Anna's okay. It's like she wants something to be wrong. She's just being overprotective. I think she really wanted Anna to go to her aunt & uncle's house in Scarborough. This whole affair seems slapped together, last-minute. The doctor's office didn't even give Anna a wheelchair to get from the office out to the car. Doesn't that seem strange? Their nurse was supposed to call yesterday afternoon about changing Anna's bandages, but she never called back... She might have called Travis after I left at five, but that seems unlikely. I have tunnel vision from being so tired. My peripheral vision is totally shot. It's like nothing exists beyond what I see immediately in front of me. My mind seems to be backing up this hypothesis. I can stare at something and completely forget what I was trying to get done. I just lost about ten minutes staring out my window at the green grass, for example. Every word I type looks misspelled. (For example, in the last paragraph, I've looked up "vision," "peripheral," "immediately," "hypothesis" and "misspelled.") It's time for bed. Maybe I'll read Kristin's Satan play before I doze off. That should lead to some interesting directoral choices. (My first time directing anything, ever!)
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